And honestly, I feel so blessed; too blessed even. It’s too good to be true. My first thought when I was told I had been accepted was, “they want me, why would they want me?” Similar to when I was waiting on college decisions, I didn’t have any confidence that I would be accepted on my own abilities. But God definitely led me to UB for His purpose of my continual seeking of Him and slow but sure growth, and it’s been eye-opening, a time of revelation and learning. Quite frankly, I believe it’s the same for this program. Lacking confidence, I gave it up to God and asked that the confirmation for His calling would just be getting into the program. It seems too easy though, probably because I didn’t fully trust that God would bring me to this point, nor did I believe in myself. It seems like the perfect opportunity for me and it would be such a rewarding experience, but these fears and self-doubts hold me back. At the same time, every situation that I was unsure of but took a step of faith, God has redeemed and shown me that I need to place all my trust in Him who provides. I have two weeks to make my decision to commit or not. Until then, praypraypray.